Friday, October 31, 2008

Barack Hussein Obama: President of the United States??? (Watch This!)

I am not saying that everything in this video is true. But think about it.Is this the man you want as our President for the next 4 years?

In my opinion, I think he has some sort of hidden agenda. He doesn't go into detail when he talks about the change he is going to bring about in our country. He simply states it will just be change. His background (And I don't just mean his religion or race) is very questionable. The friends that he has "chosen closely" have been people who embrace Marxism. He has expressed his admiration for a college professor he had who has openly expressed his hatred for Israel. Isn't America and ally to Israel? His influences, as he has said, include people like Jeremiah Wright (A preacher who believes in something called Black Liberation Theology, which you will hear about in the video), William Ayres (A radical anti-war activist who held many protests in the 1960s. A violent man who committed to bombing public buildings.) And Khalidi (His college professor).

Is Obama the man you want as President of The United States? I am not trying to tell you who to vote for, but the elections are in 4 days. Do ALL of the research you can on both McCain and Obama. See where they stand. Know where they come from. Determine whether they will do this country more good, or bad. KNOW the man who you are voting for.Don't vote ignorantly!

Thursday, October 30, 2008


When things go wrong and life gets too hard to stand, kneel.
This is my experience for today. And I am thankful.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Wisdom Teeth!

So, I am getting my wisdom teeth pulled in 3 days. I am honestly terrified. I am being put to sleep because, well, I need to be! haha They are all 4 coming out and they are impacted, so they have to do surgery and everything. I'm not as scared of the pain as I am about being put to sleep. I have never been put to sleep before, so I don't know what it's going to feel like. And I am scared of what I am going to feel like coming out of it... AHHH

If you have had your wisdom teeth removed before, please let me know what your experience was like. :)

Sunday, October 26, 2008

I Threw Up Today... AGAIN!!!

I know!! Twice in 1 month!!

I woke up late this morning and I was feeling alright. Went to church, and felt fine. Went grocery shopping, felt fine. Got home around 2 and felt fine. Then around 3 I started to feel a little nauseous, but it wasn't anything and I thought it would go away because that happens to me often. But I got to church around 4 and I started to feel even worse, so I got a drink because I thought maybe it would make me feel better, but nope!! So I just sat there reading until about 4:50, then I went to the prayer meeting. While we were praying I started to feel more and more sick, so I left to go to the bathroom. When I got there, I couldn't hold it in and... well.... I threw up.

Gross huh??? :( hahahaha

But I'm all better now. :)


"This I recall to my mind, therefore I have hope. Through the Lord's mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. ' The Lord is my portion' says my soul ' Therefore I have hope in Him.' The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the soul who seeks Him. It is good that one should hope and wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord."
-- Lamentations 3:21-26

Goodnight!! :)

Burning Heart Fellowship 2

Here is the website. The fellowship is continued today. It's pretty cool! Read their Mission statement. :)

Burning Heart Fellowship

I'm goin' on a treasure hunt. Goin' on a treasure hunt.

I remember playing a game when I was little where you would chant those words and go looking for a treasure that the adults hid. I remember being so determined to find that treasure. I would look high and low, and my desire to find it was so strong. Of course, the treasure ended up being some dinky thing like a shoe box full of rocks or something of the sort, but I was so glad to have finally found it and I was happy with it.

I have found the ultimate treasure, Jesus. But today, I am going on a treasure hunt in search for more of Him. I know Him, but I want to know Him more. This last week I went to Biola University and attended a series of conferences called the Torrey Conferences. There was a woman who spoke on Thursday afternoon named Becky Tirabossi. She told us about a group that was formed in 1947 called the Burning Heart Fellowship. The fellowship was a group of a few men who devoted themselves to constant prayer. Becky was so enthusiastic and passionate about what she told us and I could clearly see the Lord shinning SO brightly through her. I remember thinking to myself "I have Jesus, but I want what YOU have!" She has more of Him and I want what she has. I want more of Him. She challenged us to spend an hour a day in prayer for a month and to reflect back on our prayer journals to see how we have grown in the Lord. I have taken that challenge and am SO excited to see what God is going to show me in this time.

I want to know You
I want to hear Your voice
I want to know You more
I want to touch You
I want to see Your face
I want to know You more

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Forming Such A Heart As This

A flame of desire is raging in my heart. A longing I have never experienced before now. So strong, that it cannot be contained any longer. The time has come for this want, to be transformed, and put into action.
This desire is so simple, but it's achievement requires more than just want. It calls for a heart willing to forsake all it has known, to be refined and discomforted in order that it may become that of a servants. A heart willing to listen to the commands given to it by the Father, and do as it is instructed to.
I have a desire to be refined. I want the Lord to refine me and rebuke me, and put me through trials, because I know it makes me stronger. I want this so badly, and I plead for the Lord to form such a heart of love and compassion in me. To give me the strength to forsake all comfort, and everything I have to be at His feet, broken and ready to serve Him.
I am crying out for the heart of a servant.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Peace Be Still

"Peace be still, I am with you.

Rest in Me for one more night.

Peace be still, I am with you.

Replace your tired heart with Mine."

This is the chorus to the song "Tired Heart" by the Christian/Punk band Bleach. The rest of the lyrics are powerful as well, but I wanted to focus in on this part. This song has gotten me through many "sullen moments" in the past few months. The words just speak so loudly to me. There is a part in the song that says "I'll lay down all this pride so I can hear You whisper 'Its alright.'" And then it goes into the chorus. I have pondered on these words and started to examine myself and I realized that my pride has kept me from hearing God's whisper of "Its alright" and "Peace be still". I have been so confident that I can handle my problems and my life. But really, I can't. (Tonight Pastor Don McClure said something that really made me think. He said "Are you saying 'God, you have given me this body. I don't know how to work it.'" After that, the Lord spoke to me. ) Back to my pride. I have been so prideful that I have blocked out God's whisper and gave my loud mouth a mega phone. I have been so broken at times and its in those times that I should be quiet and just listen to the Lord's gentle voice, because only in HIM can I have that peace. Only in HIM can I rest. Only with HIS heart can I replace this tired one of mine. HE is the only Way, Truth and Life.

"Tired Heart" -- Bleach

I haven't felt good in months

The well has run dry, all at once.

The habit come easy but they're so hard to break

I really need to hear, to hear You say

Peace be still

I am with you.

Rest in Me for one more night

Peace be still

I am with you

Replace your tired heart with Mine.

So I'll sing songs of life

For all the broken hearts just like mine

And I'll lay down all this pride so I can hear you whisper

"Its alright"

Peace be still

I am with you

Rest in Me for one more night

Peace be still

I am with you

Replace your tired heart with Mine.

And I'm so sorry

I haven't come home

But I'm coming home soon.

"The He arose and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea "Peace be still!" And the wind ceased and there was a great calm."

-Mark 4:39

Friday, October 17, 2008

Starting to See You

Man! That felt good. I realized that you can't make everyone happy all of the time. You can't always make everyone feel better. Sometimes, you need to stand up for yourself.

I did that today and it felt so good. For the first time, I am not apologizing for something that I shouldn't apologize for and I'm standing up for myself. I am not going to try and be everyone's friend anymore. That doesn't mean that I am not going to be a friend to everyone... just not with everyone.. make sense? Any who.. Today has been a great day. God is showing me a lot that I need to work on and is depriving me of things I want, but don't need. So I am thankful.

Also, as some of you might have heard/read, I have a job at C28 (The Christian clothing store in the Mall) but you wouldn't know it because I haven't started work yet! haha It has been like 3 weeks... hmm... I am sure I'll start soon, but I really would like to know how long it takes to get a log-in for a computer. Oh well.

I had a nightmare about my manager last night... She was like Meryl Streep in the Devil Wears Prada, only like a million times worse. In my dream I felt like MONDO stressed and almost had a nervous break down... is that bad to have a nervous breakdown in a dream?? haha Anyway, I took a nap today and the dream I had then made up for the one I had last night. :)

I'm going to get ready for church! OH!! I have a new hair style...
You like it?? :D
Peace out!!
"He has shown you, O man, what is good; And what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God?"

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Still playing...

The Game is a lot harder to stop playing that I thought. I can't get over the obsession of wanting to win. My mindset is SO competitive. I WILL win, but the question still stands... Is it worth it?


Ever since I was little, I have always let people take advantage of me as a person. I tend to always look for the absolute best in people and even when they clearly took advantage of me, I let them keep on doing it. I am easily manipulated into doing things I don't really want to do because I let people change how I view things. You can ask me one minute what I think about something, let me talk to someone who has a totally different view, and the next minute, I have changed my mind. I don't know why I am that way. I just feel bad whenever I say "the wrong thing" or disagree with someone.. like it makes it seem like I am putting them down or my opinion is the only right one. I am not bold enough to stand up for EVERYTHING I believe. But I don't want to be that way anymore. I am done with letting people control my opinion and manipulating me into doing things that I don't want to do.

Monday, October 13, 2008

He Gives MORE Grace.

I don't have very much homework at ALL today! I'm going to be done by 4pm. :) YAY!!! The Loft is definitely where I'm at tonight!! :D

He gives MORE grace!! :)

I don't know why I ever lived without the Lord. He has been my strength and shield in all that I have gone through in the last 4 months. It's been 4 months today since my mom's death and I do see a difference in how I feel about it. Yes, I am still sad about it. Yes, it is still VERY hard to face. But He gives more grace. The feeling I get when I think about her is just a simple "I miss you" and no longer a "Why?... How?... I want her back!" I know without a doubt that she is standing before Jesus praising Him face to face and I can't wait until the day that we do that together. The day when every tear will be wiped away and every sorrow and bad thing will be extinguished. Jesus is my only hope and He is my only comfort.

"Serve the Lord with fear, and rejoice with trembling... Blessed are all those who put their trust in Him."
--Psalm 2:11,12

Sunday, October 12, 2008


I have been posting bulletins these last few days talking about a game I am playing. They aren't there to attract attention, or make people think. This IS MY blog and I posted them to get it off of my chest. But I am stopping the game. If I don't stop now, it will just keep going on and on until I win... but here's the thing, it's like one of those carnival games. It's fixed. It is IMPOSSIBLE for anyone to win. I am not going to spend anymore quarters trying to win the ultimate prize because it is a waste. I have a treasure and it is Jesus. My true ultimate prize is in heaven and it's already been won for me, through Jesus.


Wednesday, October 8, 2008


Jesus wasn't joking when He said "Ask and you shall receive."

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Great Is Your Faithfulness

I am in awe that the Lord answered so many prayers so quickly. He is so gracious... I want to be before His feet praising Him right now. Face to face...

"She opens her mouth with wisdom, and her tongue is the law of kindness."

"Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing, but the woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised."

(Proverbs 31:26, 30)


"Homesick" By: MercyMe
You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again
And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
This song really makes me think about my mom. I miss her so much and everyday gets a little easier and a little harder to deal with... I know that is a total contradiction, but it makes sense, trust me. I really miss her. "If homes where my heart is then I'm out of place..." I am so out of place in this world. All Christians are. I DO need the Lord's strength to make it through this... He is my Rock.
"Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord is the Rock eternal."
--Isaiah 26:4
Trusting in the Lord's promises!! :)

Monday, October 6, 2008

Memory Verses of The Day

"If you seek her as silver and search for her as hidden treasures; then you will understand the fear of the Lord. You will find the knowledge of God."
--Proverbs 2:4

Memory Verse Today. :)

The Lord answered my prayer with this one!! :D

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Before The Throne

Before the throne of God above
I have a strong, a perfect plea:
A great High Priest, whose name is Love,
Who ever lives and pleads for me.
My name is graven on his hands,
My name is written on his heart;
I know that while in heaven he stands
No tongue can bid me thence depart
No tongue can bid me thence depart.
When Satan tempts me to despair,
And tells me of the guilt within,
Upward I look, and see him there
Who made an end of all my sin.
Because a sinless Savior died,
My sinful soul is counted free;
For God, the Just, is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me
To look on Him and pardon me
Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Praise the One,
Risen Son of God!
Behold him there, the risen Lamb
My perfect, spotless righteousness,
The great unchangeable I AM,
The King of glory and of grace!
One in himself, I cannot die
My soul is purchased by his blood
My life is hid with Christ on high,
With Christ, my Savior and my God
With Christ, my Savior and my God
"One thing I have desired of the Lord, that will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire in His temple."
-- Psalm 27:4

Friday, October 3, 2008

A Vital Church Grows

So, the other day I was thinking about how we, as a body and family in Christ, aren't really accepting of EVERYONE who is in Christ with us. We act just like the rest of the world and shun those believers who don't have the same style as us or listen to the same music we do. Everyone is different. But just remember, family, that we all have one thing in common. Our King! Next time you feel like walking away when when brother or sister who is just a little different walks up to you to talk, remember, you are their brother/sister in Christ. You share the greatest thing of all time. Jesus is all we need. :) Be blessed!

"So continuing daily with one accord in the temple, and breaking bread from house to house, they ate their food with gladness and simplicity of heart, praising God and having favor with all the people. And the Lord added to their church daily, those who were being saved."
-- Acts 2:46,47

Alright, I was looking for a verse to put after this blog and I opened my bible straight to this verse. It isn't one that I had memorized or had even remembered, but the Lord gave me a little push to read it.

The first church "continued daily in one accord.." and "had favor with all the people..." and the result of that was that the Lord "Added to the church DAILY those who were being saved..." Isn't that cool! God added to the church because the church was in one accord having favor with people and praising the Lord!! If we take that as an example, the Lord will no doubt grow His church. Let's be TRUE ambassadors of Christ. Let's be loving and accepting of ALL people who are in Christ.

Isn't He amazing? Doesn't He deserve the best reps? Let's be those representatives and bring Him all glory and honor and praise!!! :)

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Colossians 2:8

What is it that I am holding in my hands, you ask? Why, it's my work permit. I am now legally working at C28!! Yay!!!! :)

What is most exciting is that it's my first job AND it's at a place where I can not only get paid, but minister to people. I am excited to see that many different ways that the Lord is going to work in and through me. Humility is key... I need to continually be in prayer and at the feet of Jesus, praying for HIM to work through me. I can't have a puffed up mind or heart.

Basically, I am STOKED!! :) Praise the LORD!!! :)

"Beware lest anyone cheat you through philosophy and empty deceit, according to the tradition of men, according to the basic principles of this world, and not according to Christ."
Colossians 2:8

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

I Simply Wished For One More Day With You.

Just missing her. These are some of my favorite pics of us together. Isn't she beautiful? :)